Music is giving me life these days. So much good shit that I’ve opened myself up to recently or rediscovered; it’s only served to create deeper connections and introspection than otherwise, I think. I wasn’t sure what I was going to dive into, but there it is. I shouldn’t have been surprised. 36 – Fade to Grey ASC […]

I haven’t been sleeping lately. My sleep schedule is all fucked up, my head is all fucked up, and I am almost literally gestating – into what, I don’t know. I feel … a lot of things, almost none of which are the same as a week ago. This is a new brand of volatility, […]

I really miss Granny today. Which isn’t unlike any other day, mind you, but I’d give most anything to hear her voice and get her advice. Recommend on Facebook Tweet about it Subscribe to the comments on this post Print for later Tell a friend

I feel like I can breathe. Today was the first session I had with my new therapist since, well, yeah. I think this move – the changing of hands, I mean – was a good one. That’s not a knock on my previous guy ’cause he helped me get where I am today, but recognizing […]

Today I am jaded and disillusioned and cynical and angry and afraid and I hate this version of me. Recommend on Facebook Tweet about it Subscribe to the comments on this post Print for later Tell a friend

Just a quick note here, ’cause I’m not really in the mood to do a bunch of out-laying. I’m not in a very good headspace and I gotta work out of it. You know what, tonight I’m gonna sit in it. Tomorrow I’m going to dive into music and Spanish class. Fuck this shit. Recommend […]

It’s about 2:00 AM on Sunday morning; I got back from Ascension about an hour ago. I’ve got a flurry of thoughts in my head about how best to use this time, this energy, this place for creative outlets. Funny how seeing Robin and Julie do their thing made me crave the stage. That’s another […]

… and the corner is turned. She’s gone. Emotionally, spiritually, empathetically, she’s gone. She’s been gone for a while now, I just didn’t see it. For the last (almost) two weeks, I’ve stopped trying to retain it, to get it back; it’s clear now that I wasn’t going to succeed and that I didn’t have […]

My god, this is so lonely. Recommend on Facebook Tweet about it Subscribe to the comments on this post Print for later Tell a friend

I’m starting to see a bit of light. I try very hard to be objective, to seek the recognition of the reality in situations where I am predisposed to blindness, either through atrophy or willfulness, assuming I know where those blind spots are. And in many cases, I simply become aware that I am ridiculously […]