This was originally written a month or so ago, but with digitally raised eyebrows wondering what the hell is going on, I think it’s time to post this publicly. After 15 years of marriage and 18 years of being “Josh-and-Ivonne”, we have decided to be simply Josh and simply Ivonne. I’m sure there are a […]

I really miss Granny today. Which isn’t unlike any other day, mind you, but I’d give most anything to hear her voice and get her advice. Recommend on Facebook Tweet about it Subscribe to the comments on this post Print for later Tell a friend

I feel like I can breathe. Today was the first session I had with my new therapist since, well, yeah. I think this move – the changing of hands, I mean – was a good one. That’s not a knock on my previous guy ’cause he helped me get where I am today, but recognizing […]

Today I am jaded and disillusioned and cynical and angry and afraid and I hate this version of me. Recommend on Facebook Tweet about it Subscribe to the comments on this post Print for later Tell a friend

Just a quick note here, ’cause I’m not really in the mood to do a bunch of out-laying. I’m not in a very good headspace and I gotta work out of it. You know what, tonight I’m gonna sit in it. Tomorrow I’m going to dive into music and Spanish class. Fuck this shit. Recommend […]

It’s about 2:00 AM on Sunday morning; I got back from Ascension about an hour ago. I’ve got a flurry of thoughts in my head about how best to use this time, this energy, this place for creative outlets. Funny how seeing Robin and Julie do their thing made me crave the stage. That’s another […]

… and the corner is turned. She’s gone. Emotionally, spiritually, empathetically, she’s gone. She’s been gone for a while now, I just didn’t see it. For the last (almost) two weeks, I’ve stopped trying to retain it, to get it back; it’s clear now that I wasn’t going to succeed and that I didn’t have […]

My god, this is so lonely. Recommend on Facebook Tweet about it Subscribe to the comments on this post Print for later Tell a friend

I’m starting to see a bit of light. I try very hard to be objective, to seek the recognition of the reality in situations where I am predisposed to blindness, either through atrophy or willfulness, assuming I know where those blind spots are. And in many cases, I simply become aware that I am ridiculously […]

I’m sitting on my couch on a sunny Sunday afternoon. The day looks bright outside, but I haven’t opened the curtains. Abul Mogard was playing on Ivonne’s computer while she was in our room on the phone. Reza is eating something in her room; I can hear the spoon on porcelain. I’m reading about the […]